I am still alive..

Wow i feel like i haven't been on here in forever. Sad how just a week ago i was on here 24/7 and now im back in America and i have abandoned my blog :( Hope you guys didnt miss me to much. I think this will only be a quick update as our AC unit is broken and its bloody freezing outside so its like minus degrees in the house and i can hardly feel my fingers while i am typing this. The travel was HORRIBLE!! The days when i enjoyed traveling are history..I just can't enjoy it no more. I even broke down and had a panic attack at the airport in New York..Welcome back!! NOT. I will have to go into detail another time but put it this way i was trying to hold onto the plane because i thought i was going to die.
The job front s*cks!!! i went to the job center yesterday as i have been applying for so many jobs and i just can't seem to get a job. Now i need to get my transcript translated before i can even apply for any of the CYS jobs on base that i really want. God knows how much that is going to cost but im also going to do my CPR and First aid stuff soon too. I am also looking at volunteering at the Youth Village in the mean time.
Hmm what else is going on..The AC unit should be getting fixed soon, Jon called and said they are coming today instead of tomorrow. Thank god for Homeowners Warranty! 75$ deductible and hopefully a brand new unit as ours looks a little fried. Jons friend came by and said there were sparks coming out of it when switching the temp and we kept having to run it on Emergency heat which has burnt the whole side of the unit..ooops. But there was no other way to get it running.

I need to go haha im to cold. Even with a jumper, dressing gown and blanket im to cold so im gonna take a nice hot shower. Will be back soon!!!

CleanTheDish-a-Phobia

I dont know what to call it. While i am typing this i am sat here with a grossed out look on my face haha. This has nothing to do with being lazy and not wanting to clean lol. I actually think i might have a mild case of OCD but anyway that is not important. Since i was younger i have had an issue with cleaning dishes or loading the dishwasher. I think im traumatized from when i use to stay at my friends house which was disgusting. When id stay at her house she would ask me if i could help her clean the dishes. She would NEVER scrape the food off the plate and just let the water get really gross full of food. (Im gagging while i type this) I dont understand how people can be so disgusting and live so messy. A few years later i was on holiday in Canada with my parents to visit g-ma and g-pa. After we got done eating a meal i was asked to do the dishes because my mum has really messed up hands from all her allergies. It was a NIGHTMARE! I avoided holding the kitchen cloth as much as i could. I was literally holding it by my nails trying to clean the dishes. I guess it doesn't help that im a picky eater to and anything i dont eat grosses me out too. Anyway my dad was a little mad at me because i was 'acting' stupid so someone else did it. When i load the dishwasher in my house i scratch every little piece of dirt of the plate and wash it till it is clean before i put it in the dishwasher. God forbid something yucky i dont like gets on my finger while im doing it. My mum laughs at me all the time. She finds it entertaining to watch me do the dishes. I had to write about this just because i have just got done loading the dishwasher and they had tuna salad for Dinner and it smells and its just gross and i got the juices on my finger :'(

Anyway i have to get going again. I need to get my washing done and pack my suitcase and do my big sister a favour. Ohh and today is the last time im doing the Share your blog Sunday..It really isn't worth it. but if you want your blog featured on here and its not just some junk then i dont mind if you message me. Ciiiao

My Dance Star

Destiny had another dance performance today at the Spring Festival in MG. It wasn't organised well at all and people were just being rude and freaking out. Me and dad used our brains to get inside and grab a seat before the other 200 parents and friends came in to stand by the stage to watch. We had awesome seats until some stupid people decided to stand in the center of where everyone was sitting..Did they care? Did they check! Ah well i managed to sneak to a different table and lay low and film.

For those of you who dont know, Destiny is my 10 year old little sister. She has been dancing for a year now and at the begining of Feb she made it into the contest group and has been training every Sunday with some other girls. She also dances with the "Kids Clubbers" twice a week. Destiny seems pretty worn out at the mo with late nights and dancing 3 times a week. I wish i could show you a video of her and the contest group because their dance is AMAZING but obviously im not allowed to film it as someone could steal their moves. They have a contest on May 8th which i wont be here for anymore =( But i will get a video of them from somewhere. I really hope they get far, last years group came 2nd so we will see. Here is a video of her and the Kids clubbers on the stage. The stage was horribly built and was shaking like mad lol. As you can tell during the Vid someone randomly coughs right into my ear THANKS. And 2 fathers decide to just stand right up front and take pics. Destiny is wearing a white jumper (Sweater for Americans) and green trousers.

This next video is another group from Destinys dance school that take part in contests, they are called "Baseline". The girl at the front with the crazy high ponytail is only 17 and is Destinys dance teacher! She is awesome!! The reason some parts of the dance seem odd is because they usually dance on way bigger stages and some people are missing.

The weather was awesome today too. After watching the dances we went to see my mum at work and went to JHQ to grab some stuff at the NAAFI. I use to work for NAAFI but in a different place. I saw an old friend of mine, Britta. It was so good to see her again and i saw my old manager too. Looks like everyone has traded stores again and he is now working there. It was so weird being back in that place and my old manager said that if i ever come back to Germany for good to call him right away and he would give me my old job back. Kind of made me feel good knowing that i must have done something right that i can always go back if i wanted to. I also saw an old family friend of ours today, she managed to put me in an urgh mood. She asked me when i was going back to the States and when i told her Wednesday she looked at me as if to say "Your making a big mistake girl"..Well guess what im old enough to make my own decisions and if i happen to fall on my face i will pick myself up OK! God i know people are worried about me but why not just support me instead of being like that and making me feel crap? Never mind here are some pics from today..

The red Tractor is a Porsche Diesel..Woot woo! And see the old Lady on her scooter thingy...She made my day! Lol..Well im off to sort my room out a little. I hope everyone is having a great weekend!

P.S Here is a Link to Destinys dance audition vid: Audition Video She is in the middle all in black.

R.I.P Knut =(

Knut was the first polar bear born in 30 years in Berlin zoo.
He wais raised by humans because his mother rejected him.
Today he was found dead floating on the water =( R.I.P Knut...

Dedicated to Anna

I think we have had to many of these lately haha..

Splish Splash i was taking a bath

Its Friday!! I have just had a nice long relaxing bath and now i want some popcorn. I am not a bath person, i dont do it very often and i dont know who else does it but i ALWAYS shower after a bath. And seen as im seing my Love on Wednesday i decided to pamper myself a little, including shaving those monsterous hairy legs of mine...

HAHA no they are NOT my legs but i wasn't far off. Man i can't even use the excuse that it is winter anymore teehee. But its all good because im excited for some warmer weather and sun so i can start catching some rays. I hate being so typical British...as white as can be. I painted my toe nails dark purple too and sometime before i leave i will do my finger nails. It is so wierd that i paint my nails now. I never use to like it. I always use to think it was to girly. I can't wait till i can start packing my suitcase but these last couple of days are draaaaaging.

On another note does anyone else find it hard to be excited about anything when you go online or the TV is on and all these horrible things are happening around the world? I get frustrated watching the news right now, i feel bad for everyone in Japan but it is so obvious that they are trying to cover up the truth and everyone is telling a different story. I do really hope they will get the situation under control but really..One min its all fine and dandy the next min it is all over and nothing can be done. Yesterday everyone was celebrating the HEROS that volunteered to stay at the Nucelar powerstation and today it was said that they got ORDERD by the president to stay there. Oh and then NATO wants to butt in to Libya and threaten that any time now they would be ready to invade and Bomb!? What on earth..and of course the Brits and the Americans are all over it. WHY? Have they not lost enough money and soldiers in to useless stuff like this? Dig a deep hole put Gadaffi in a dog kennel and bury his ass..Im going to stop now lol im sure everyone else is just as sick of this as i am.

Oh there is actually something im super excited about..Anna banana at Beautiful Disaster has got me a birthday present!!! I will have to wait till it arrives in the States and then i will share with you all what it is. Eeeek i love prezzies. One week and a couple of hours till my buuurfday =) And it doesn't look like we will be going camping because the weather forecast says its going to be cold. Oh well as long as i am back home with my Love and my dogs that is all that matters <3

It's what boredom does

A video of me and my younger sister. Im speaking german btw and we were messing about thats why she has the cap on her head lol. We took pictured with my webcam and as we were looking through them we noticed how funny it looked when we clicked back and forth. I decide to record a video while we were looking through them. Doesn't her laugh sound funny lol

How much??

Wow, ok i know im a bit early BUT im glad i saw how much the AOS (adjustment of status) is going to cost us when i have to do it next year before my 2 year GC is up..1070$!!!! HOW MUCH??? I want/need a job like yesterday.

Good day =)

Today has been a good day. Ive managed to add my new Blog Arrived in America i suggest you follow if your reading this lol. I got my first birthday card even though its not my birthday till the 26th. It was a card from my lovely G-ma in Canada with a picture of her in it. Man i miss that lady, she is so funny and down to earth even at her old age (god i hope she doesnt read this she will kill me lol). I got my first job rejection in a while, im still confused as there seemed to be an issue with some type of check up so im going to have to figure out if i just didn't meet their requirements even though according to the job ad there weren't any or if there is something on mz background check i dont know about. Who knows! Still waiting to hear back from some places but even if i dont get anything right now its ok because i will get my butt in gear as soon as i get back to the States. I thought i had lost my purse today, god if my head wasn't screwed on i would lose that too..I had it yesterday and then i put it down but didnt know where. I found it in between my clothing on my chair lol. I really need to figure out a safe place for all my belongings that are really important. I have already decided to pack my passport in my laptop bag! Im writing it on here just incase i forget. I need to remind myself to that i need to get to the library when i get back too!! I dont like to read but Borderlinegirl has got me curious after my post about Disney movies..I will tell you all about it once i have checked it out for myself. Put it this way though..she had me in stiches explaining what she sees in Disney movies. I got my suitcase from upstairs today too, i so want to pack now. Im actually more excited then nervous right now but we will see how long that lasts for. I dont know why im happy but i think its because im trying to be positiv about whats to come..i have to be positiv! I can't let my anxiety kick my butt again. Life is what you make it right? So im going to take it in my hands and stop feeling sorry for myself. There are so many less fortunate people out in the world right now. Im lucky to have wonderful people in my life, a roof over my head, food in the fridge, my dogs and ducky!

Im hoping i can keep this posting everyday on my blog up. I have only managed to do 1 thing on my 101 in 1001 which was reach 50 followers lol. Im not really to bothered about my blog its more about the fact that i want to be able to follow through with something for once. We will see how that goes, specially when im going to be back with my hubby and have less time for blogging :-O Thank god for smartphones lol.

Well i think its time for bed. Its still a lil early but i think i could do with an early night and getting up at a decent time like 8am instead of 10am. It just makes me feel bleh. Good night to you all..Its nearlly the weekend by the way!!

I have another Blog..

I have NEW Blog & Happy 2 month Birthday to this Blog. 87 Followers in 2 months, not bad eh. I decided i wanted to seperate this blog from my immigration story and living in a different country. Im hoping i will find people to share their experiences of being in Long distance relationship, immigrating, living in a different country and traveling with me on my other blog. If you would like to share pics, storys, give advice to others or be a guest blogger please let me know with a comment either on this blog or the other blog. Im still working on the new blog but here is the link Arrived in America

I can't believe this blog is only 2 months old. I feel like i have been blogging forever. Thank you to my followers who leave me comments and always seem to have the right words to say when im having a bad day. A virtual hug to you all =) Your all amazing!

I need to get dressed as its noon already and i feel lazy but i will be back to blog later.

Updated my Blog

UPDATE: New blog instead of new tabs =) Its a seperate blog from this one so i can write just about life in America and LDR's and this blog is just my rambelings. Check it out: The start of something New

After i thought i had lost my new pages i found them! I had somehow managed to make them in new posts instead of pages lol. Well i have new tabs, America Part 1-3 and Living in America. 1 is about my first time in America, 2 is about my Wedding and holiday in Florida, 3 will be about my 30hr road trip with hubby to Vegas and then Living in America will be about my new life in a different country :) There are lots and lots of pics to see!

Tomorrow is my 2 month Blog birthday woop woop and only 1 week till i see my husband! How exciting. Well i hope everyone is having a great week! Bye Bye

Worry Wart

Uuurgh its midnight and im awake and probably wont be sleeping for some time. These last few days are just robbing my last nerve even though nothing has been going on apart from my mind running at the speed of light. Its just over a week till i go back to the States and i just cant stop worrying. I shouldnt because thats what made me ill in the first place. I want to take life as it comes but right now it just seems so hard.
I hate money so much! I want a job so bad but i dont have a car, i dont have a car because i dont have money, i dont have money because i dont have a job. Its a stupid circle. Riding a bus may be an option but Ghettoville freaks me out a little...Maybe i should get my permit to carry a little gun in my purse OMG THATS SO WRONG =( America is Craaazzy! I have just realised someting, I dont even have a drivers lisence....I have a permit but i can hardly ask Jon to sit in the truck with me to work. Uh BIG TRUCK eeek. I need to call the pharmacy for a prescription so i can pick it up like the day after i get there, i should probably even get in with my PCM and get some X A N A X till i can get my anxiety under control again. Next step will be COUNSELING, lots and lots of it! Oh and there is mine and Jons Birthdays the weekend after i get back..I NEED to get my hair done, i feel and look terrible and i guess it would be a step towards bringing my confidence back a bit seen as i feel like a greasy spoon with 3 diff colours in my hair that has totally grown out. I went to get my ends cut like 2 weeks ago and regret not getting it cut decent because i look like some kid has cut my hair with a pair of nail scissors. YUCK..I do not feel attractiv one bit. I want to look and feel good for my Love, its been some time. Another thing killing me right now is not knowing if my Love is getting depoyed. As you can tell by my wrighting im a mess lol and it really doesnt help at all that i can feel my mum is very nervous and anxious and scared about me leaving again and i hate hate hate upsetting her. She is so emotional and its going to kill her to see me leave again. That reminds me i need to speak to Jon about getting a Phonejack....oO and i really need to consider getting back on FB to speak to my family. They dont know how to use the net but they are experts when it comes to FB! *Rolls eyes* I dont miss FB but im a family person and i like to be able to keep up with my family when im not there. My German G-ma is out of hosp tomorrow but she has decided to go ahead with another heart OP after the messed up her first one and she nearlly lost her leg. She did say not long ago she would NEVER do it again but she changed her mind. Im also keeping my G-ma in Canada in my thoughts..aunty Donna is moving to Victoria soon and G-ma is old and hasnt been by herself for some time. She has lost 20pounds in a short period and im really worried she is sick. Canadian health care system sucks! I really need to go because im running out of breath typing..i dont know how but i am and this has just gotten way to long lol. Bye!!!!

She puts a smile on my face

So i was in Destinys room the other night and came across a 'Credit card' she made out of paper. Here is a pic:

Back

Front

50.0000000000,99 euro haha gotta love kids

Meet me on Monday

 

1.  Do you have a fireplace in your home?

Nooo, and we have never had a fireplace. I dont think its that common where i am from in Germany to have a fireplace. Or maybe it is but we have always lived in military areas and no one ever had a fireplace. I wish we did though.

2.  Can you drive a stick shift?
Nope not really, i use to do the stick shifting when my mum was driving when i was younger but i have only ever driven hubbys truck which is automatic.

3.  How many computers are in your home?

We have 2. My laptop and our home computer. My laptop barely gets used when im home.

4.  Are your taxes done yet?  Do you do them yourself?

Never had to pay taxes where i have worked so never had to file taxes. Hubbys taxes haven't been done yet either but will be done as soon as i get back.

5.  What is your favorite meal of the day?

Mmm i would say Brunch i dont eat early in the morning so i eat late breakfast and lunch lol. Bacon Sarnies are the way forward mmm

Beauty and the Beast

...Its been sooo long since i watched this movie. Its actually been forever since i watched an oldie Disney movie. Movies these days just aren't the same. I think my all time fave Disney movie is 101 Dalmatians or Lady and the Tramp. I think Pinochio is the scariest of them all. It just totally freaks me out, specially the version with real people where the kids turn into Donkeys. Its terrible lol.

Whats your fave Disney Movie?

The weather today was lovely, it wasnt to cold but it wasnt exactly warm. It was just right to go out in the garden (Back yard for you Americans!) and do some work to it ready for the spring and summer. There were so many ladybirds (also known as Ladybugs) and there were loads of little flowers already popping out the ground. Its times like this i wish i had an amazing Canon Camera to take pics. We just have a simple Casio Exilim but it still takes great pics. Here are some i took..

I can't wait for Spring to come around. Im done with the cold miserable grey days! I'm looking forward to the warm sunny days sitting on the front porch just enjoying life. I'm looking forward to hopefully being able to use the 27ft pool in our garden thats hopefully survived the winter and I'm looking forward to spending time with my love and our puppys down by the lake =)

Well im off to watch some TV with my mum and sister. Dont forget tomorrow is Share Your Blog Sunday again! Good night x Luvs Meeee 

Uh, You're just a wife..

What gives a Military Wife the right to wear her HUSBANDS RANK <--HUSBANDS!!!! get it?!?! I am not SPC Shareen Whatevermyname, You are not 2LT Judy Imbetterthanyou. YOU are not BETTER than ME or MY HUSBAND just because of your husbands Rank. I am damn proud of my husband and no matter what rank he is or will be in the future, my name is Shareen and i am the wife of Jon. Im nothing better then you because of my husband, i am my very own person and do not need to wear something that doesnt belong to me to defend myself. I have a mouth and a mind of my own. I will respect anyones other half who wether or not he or she is military, whatever rank he or she is or title they have but i will NOT respect some stupid wife who is so freaking insecure that she hides behind a rank. Im just saying..

I promise This will make you smile..

I know i know i just posted like 10mins ago but i rememberd this awesome video my cousin had posted on his FB a few months back. I really needed to watch it..

I am going to watch this every morning when i wake up haha..The world is awesome!!

I would do anything to have this right now!!! This Cupcake looks so yummy...and i think all the colouring and sugar that is in it would totally make my day! lol.

Have a great Weekend everyone!

(Photo and cupcake is not mine, i wish it was lol)

I need to stop..

I need to stop jumping on Blogger and posting silly stuff when im having a hard time. I have been feeling really anxious lately. I feel exhausted and like i have a bundle of anger inside me. Im worried sick about both my G-mas and also got let down by a family member today which triggered a lot of things. I just wanted to say Thank you all so much for your lovely comments though i really appreciate it. I think i need an early night and a nice sleep in and maybe a good talk with my dad. I think he is the only one who ever really understands and listens to what i say want need and feel. I also want to say thanks to Borderlinegirl for getting out from under the cloak to leave me a comment! I feel special! Im going to go back downstairs and spend some time with my little sister. Wish i had xanax right now...its been months since i have needed anything. I was doing good but right now i could really use a little help from those wonder pills.

Scotty McCreery Rocks my Socks

I usually dont watch any of the Idol shows past the auditions because i just like to laugh at the Freaks but this year i have to say they have some awesome singers. I caught up with the shows last night and im sooo glad Scotty McCreery is in the Top 13..I think he is going to get very far. I hope he wins. He has such an awesome voice, specially for 17. I like him even more because i Love this song too lol.

Go Scotty Woooohoooo